I hate myself when I think about you. It's weird to feel this way. It's like I want to scream to the world when I don't get to know how you are doing or what you are up to. I just miss those moments when we are talking and I imagine you smiling or making faces to act like a jerk. I should probably pull myself together and face reality. Why do I keep torturing myself? I need to let it go... Let you go.